It's been quite a few months here at Wedfully Yours HQ. Needless to say a trimester of adjusting, planning, and heart preparation for our world to change. We're so excited. We're excited for Baby Whitten to make his debut and for us to take on this task to shepherd him.
We've also been so blessed to have such a strong and large support from our family and friends, it's been so helpful to us! With all the excitement and support, I want to be able to involve those who are interested in following alongside in this journey so I thought I'd make a few baby-centered entries. (I promise just a few, we'd still like to keep a few things between us.) I always feel like when I get asked questions on different occasions, I can never get the exact answer I'd like to get out because there's just so much to say! So here goes:
How are you feeling?
The biggest obstacle I had with my first trimester was fatigue. I was constantly tired/sleepy and found it hard to complete my daily routine of work (and I like my routine!) so that was tough to manage. I did not have actual "morning sickness", I better described it as an all day hangover that would come and go. Thankfully, I've been feeling lots of relief from these symptoms so hang in there, it does get better!
Have you had any cravings?
I have not had any cravings, actually I had big food aversions. Nothing seemed to taste good, I even made mentions that I would prefer a feeding tube... haha! There was a week where I did want steak (which Adam had no opposition to) and I felt really alive when I had red meat, which probably meant that I needed iron. I have completely stopped drinking coffee, which I used to live off of everyday. Not because I'm avoiding for pregnancy safety, my doctor has actually given me a green light to eat anything I want (more on that later) but because it does not sound good at all, gasp! Good news is along with my returning energy, my appetite is coming back so I'm excited for food to taste good again.
Were you guys trying?
This is a more private question, just like "When are you guys going to have kids?" ;) and asked not as often as the first 2, but still asked. Since I do like to keep transparency, I decided to go ahead and share something else that not many talk about. To be clear, Adam and I wouldn't have gotten married if we were not ready for children. In today's times we get to do more family planning, but as we are all adults here, we understand children can happen especially when married. With that said, we did want to wait a little bit. I have always loved children and wanted to be a mother, it was just in my nature, but it's always nice to just be two as we get ourselves established.
When Adam told me in April that he was "ready" to grow our family, we felt it was time to take the next step in our story. I was more prepared for a battle, an obstacle to cross, considering we've dealt with so much in our young marriage and we are pros at dealing with adversities. What I was not prepared for was for God to answer so quickly. When the test came back positive, I was not excited at all. (Yikes, I can't believe I actually typed that.) I imagined myself to be gushing with joy, but instead I was scared, nervous, and almost wanted to take my prayer back. I was scared of how my life was going to change, how my social life was going to be interrupted, and mostly how my business and career was going to fall down the drain. It was so silly. I know this is not the common thing to share, but I want for anyone else who might feel or have felt this way, IT'S OK! I shared my fears with many other moms and mentors and they assured me I was not the only one to ever feel this way. It IS something to have mixed emotions about. It's life changing!
In those first few weeks, you may not have any symptoms and obviously not showing, so it doesn't quite feel "real". I will say, that when you get to see and hear the heartbeat for the first time, there's a whole new rush of emotions. That day I really felt God working in my heart and softening it to truly love His little creation He's trusted me with. Friends, it's an indescribably incredible feeling.
And as for this guy here, he takes care of me in ways I could not imagine being cared for. I knew I married a solid man, but in these past few weeks he's shown me so much more. I feel 100% of confidence having him lead our family. With these changes in my body and the symptoms that come along with it, I can tend to be slightly less graceful at times, but thankfully he has plenty of grace to cover us both! He has been the biggest supporter in every single step and as this is new to me, it's just as new to him but we're learning together and I'm grateful for this time we have to fortify our marriage even more.
For my sisters who are trying and have not been able to experience His fruit, please remember you are not forgotten. His timing and His plan is never perfect for us but perfect for Him and that is the peace we can have.